Another Sunday Jotting

Sundays are always bittersweet for me cause one one hand is still a weekend and on another hand, Monday is just round the corner. Fuel prices are up again...sighs....that means another $4 increase for my full tank. The reason why we are all gloomy when it comes to fuel increase is not the fuel prices itself but the effects of it. Some MF will take advantage and raise their price of goods by 10 cents or 20 cents..biacthes...we all know that 20 cents extra in diesel prices dont transalate to 20 cents on other stuff. You can see all these MF traders around us, the mamak stalls, restaurants and many more shops. I hope these people burn in hell.

Enough of anger management, its time to party!! Next week in convo weekend and i think i can smell party from here...eheheh...Most of my homies already agreed to stay over on friday night and i reluctantly agreed. At first i was thinking of driving up and down the PLUS highway for two days but because i'm gonna end up lepaking till late night on friday, might as well just bunk in. Afterall, its not often that it happens. Cant wait for the party and oh yeah, if you guys think that our scroll is gonna be a nice piece of paper with designs on it ( like all other degrees recognize or not) forget it....MMU's degree scroll is one piece of shit i tell ya, just one piece of A4 paper that can be printed by anybody. So if anyone wants a nice fake scroll with a design based on RMIT scroll, I'm taking orders. Gonna print myself a fake degree.heheh ...nuff said.

just a song...

"Then the rainstorm came over me

And I felt my spirit break

I had lost all of my belief you see

And realized my mistake

But time through a prayer to me

And all around me became still

Through the rainstorm came sanctuary

And I felt my spirit fly

I had found all of my reality

I realize what it takes

I need love, love's divine

Please forgive me now

I see that I've been blind

Give me love

Love is what I need to help me know my name"

Hopes and dreams - My American Dream

What a week it has been, Audiowarfare on Thursday night and lotsa talks on the street on AP's and other political stuff that dont matter to me. Theres also talks of dreams of going abroad to start a new life and most of the time Australia and UK come up tops as choice destination. Deep inside me, i have always dreamt of going to the United States (where dreams can come true) and make it big there, to live the American Dream just like most immigrants that arrive at Lady Liberty's doorstep at NY Harbor once a upon a time long ago. At this moment of time, i'm a bit hesitant of that dream. It seems that right here in Malaysia i might just get a little lucky if i try hard enough and might just end up rich. Also the global situation is just not so conducive for living in the big US of A ( Damn that Redneck President!)
Sighs, bad timing that all these has to happen now when i am eager to venture out and when i have nothing to lose. Or do i have everything to lose? I dunno. But if a better life quality that i am seeking, then the bold move must be made no matter what. The only stumbling block is recognition, a degree from MMu just dont cut out outside Malaysia, know what mean? So my ticket will be an Internationally recognized qualification which i have to take in the near future.
So there's my plan for my hope and dreams. I have a dream but as always the opportunity costs are just to difficult to calculate. Or maybe its time for me to sleep?

Rainy days....

Its been a boring day with a great wheather...yes..i love the rain actually...playing football at the MMU rugby field this evening does bring back some good memories of my good 3 years there. I cant help but miss my uni life and its mostly cause my life is not as happening as it was those days...which ended a year ago...now i have no life, so to speak. I miss hanging out with crowd and also living the hostel life with loud music, Warcraft and Coke, etc....

As this point of my working life, i feel like there is whole range of mountains to climb...if the past 24 odd years have been like Mt. Everest, then this is the K2 summit we are talking about...tougher to crack even for the pros who can climb Everest. Its humbling to know that all the achivement and past glory count for nothing now, its so sobering to think about it when you do at times like today. But despite all this there is one thing that wont change and still counts no matter what happens....His love from above still counts and He is my guide when night falls on my path. Its the truth and by the way, enjoy the wheather...

Clouds...

If you ever bothered to read up my blog once in a while, you will notice that i have gaps in between my post. Well, ever since i left HSBC i seem to be not getting enough time online to update posts and also to get some good sleep. I think i need to revamp my life totally....get more online time and hopefully some life...

Binge Weekend

Man,...its a long time since i enjoyed my self drinking and eating carelessly. On friday night , i had like one of the best weekend night in this year!! Imagine dinner with colleagues at Kelab Golf Negara Subang with 2 bottles of red wine, one 1996 Vintage Dom Perignon champagne, one Martell Cordon Bleu, one Macallans' Forties and of course a cuban cigar. That is what i call enjoying fine moments of life..when you are fortunate to have great colleagues that have memberships to exclusive golf and country club and fine fine alcohol.

Words cant explain the pleasures of that weekend but i think it was partly contributed by the fact it was a mixed feelings week. I had fun at the SAP SummIT 2005 conference and got to know a few chicks..hehe but also some sadness on the London bombings. One moment you are carefree reflecting on a good day and another moment thinking of the events that happen in London. Some people wont be fortunate to celebrate weekends and some will be left with bad memories but i belive that London and her residents will be resilient and overcome this. With my pleasures on the weekend i also extend a prayer to the Lord for His blessings and also for Him to always protect us Malaysians.Amen.

Sunday and Live 8

Yeah man, Bob Geldof organized a hell of show last night from London, Berlin , Moscow, Philidelphia, Paris , Tokyo and a host of other places i cant recall. Live 8 rocks !!...but will it really give an effect to G8 to do something about poverty?..i really hope so. We are living in totally materialistic society here in Malaysia or shall i say Klang Valley. All we do is complain that we dont have BMWs and Evos or that we dont have enough money to buy that RM 400 shoe or clothes at KLCC or One Utama so its a bit hard for me to imagine that they are really people out there who are dying cause they cant afford Panadol or some flu and cough medicine. But its true that some kid in Africa is dying every 3 seconds...yeps. All because they are too poor and all we do is complain that our lives are not fortunate enough. Its sad but i really hope and pray that at least something can be done by powerful nations to eradicate poverty with their billions of dollars that are currently being used to wage wars and to conquer some third world econoy. Damnit G8, its time you put your dollars to some good for once.

Thank God its Friday!!

Well, it has been a very long week indeed. Since Monday, I have not been able to get enough sleep and due to that, my thinking process was a bit affected by it. Oh yeah, I got my car dented by a motorbike too during this week. Sighs, its bad enough the whether is not good at all but these obstacles just do push my patience to a limit. I’m beginning to feel like the global economy where I has been subjected to bad whether and high oil prices with the prospects that US consumer spending wont be increasing soon. Talk about high oil prices, are you one of the people fooled by the rumor that prices are gonna increase? If you are, don’t you know so far all the price increase was announced on Wednesdays? Yea man chill out…petrol price would only increase after the cabinet meets on Wednesdays and the announcement will come on that evening itself via radio and TV. Come on guys, you should know better than trusting some SMS or internet rumor. Have faith in the mainstream media for once in these kind of news.

As i met with Kameeni and Charveen during lunch at Cyberia, i realized that since i have entered MMU back in 2001 till now i have not joined any organization outside of Cyberjaya...MMu...HSBC...now some company at Century Square....wow...i love Cyberjaya!!!
hahaha...and good luck to all my friends that are on a job search, i wish you all the best and may you land the job of a lifetime so we can have a nice chat sometime...kekeke

mid week ramblings...

Its close to 2 weeks since i started work at my new work place and i have settled down quite well and its now all about my performance. I am feeling a bit of pressure from myself as i am not used of not getting any flak and unreasonable work duties. I am supposed to develop new businesses and also seek new projects for my company but somehow it is not happening as yet.

This week theres gonna be a GT race at Sepang and at this point i have not decided to go or not yet and i am depending on the crowd within my gang and if they go i will go. Its been a while since i went to a GT race and it will be nice if i can be there again.

Damn..sleep creeping in like a melodic tune and i'm blacking outzzz..............

The Return of the Jedi!!!...not!!!

After more than a month of silence, i am back....like how Batman has returned to the big screens after a long absence. Throughout the whole missing month, a whole lot of stuff happened which i would not elaborate here as i want it to be like the Clone Wars. It happened but the story will be told some other time.

Abstract of what happened?:

1) Soul searching up north

2) Star Wars

3) Got a job offer from Pharmaniaga

4) Got another job offer at PriceWaterhouseCoopers

5) Declined PwC and joined Pharmaniaga

6) Batman Begins!!

And all of this happened with a lot of bumming goin on as well interesting stories in between but we will talk about it next time. I'm back and it feels good, if you have been looking at this blog previously and thought i was dead after May 9th.....too bad, I'm back stronger and badder than before and i'm here to stay!!

Of last week......

It was quite an uneventful week last week barring my second interview with a pharmaceutical company and also Mother's Day. The whole week was spent chilling out in various locations in Klang Valley with some friends that was free. Its boring but imagine you have nothing worth writing to capture a week. Sighs

Long Long Weekend

Long weekends, how often does it occur?..not much i guess butr when it does , it promises fun time and a broke wallet. With some interesting sales on such as the one by adidas and also Isetan , the thoughts of blowing some cash haunted me and luckily i managed to restraint from buying useless stuff. Phew! Ok, back to the weekend. Couple of friends came down from JB and being on leave until further notice, i joined them and hanged out around KL chilling out until late. Its quite hard nowadays to hang out in a big group as opposed with last time when everyone shared common timetables. But the one thing that prevailed was that everyone can blow a bigger amount of cash than last time. I guess sacrificing time for money is a fair trade and how i wish i can trade my time off in the next coming weeks for some cash. But for now, its late nights for me until further notice....

The City Life : Coffee and Books

I spend the whole afternoon simmering under the sun doing Malaysia's number one pastime, lepaking. More or less but for once there is a destination and also purpose..Borders KL and to browse and if possible read and digest some books for free ( Malaysian Style). The place is a haven for readers and the choice of books you can get here is enormous and puts Kino the Bookstore to shame. The reason why i left out MPH is because they carry some good books cheaper than these global bookstores. After browsing books after books, i settled for some marketing books which was Secrets of Persuasion by Roger Dawson ( MPH carries his books way cheaper) and Cold Calling Techniques ( That Really Works!) by Stephan Schiffman. I really spent my time reading and digesting these two books and once i get a marketing job, i'll get em cause they are that good! I just love bookstores and i think if i try and read every book available there i will take my first step to become a "Superhero" or "Wira Kota"...eheehhee...its just enormous!!..every bookworms' orgasmo or sorts...

Next thing to clear my head of books is drinking coffee at a joint that replaced McDonalds as the symbol of American Capitalism and Globalization, Starf$%ks. Oops , i mean Starbucks. (sorry)
Now, because the dude that came with me smokes, i have to forgo the comforts of the plush seats inside with air-conditioning for the sweet smell of fumes and sweaty exterior of Times Square. Sitting out there got looking at people of KL get by and got me worried that despite having superb infrastructure, the Malaysian society still has a long way to catch up in terms of mentality and conduct. There is something wrong out there and you can see it but you cant put to words. Actually i'm just lost for words for the toughts i have. Are we forsaking bigger things in life for the pursuit for material wealth? Or is it the rat race that actually consumed us and made us living life the way of the rat? ....Wanna know what i'm talking about? spend some time stoned with enough coffee and just stare to the pavements in front of any Starbucks in KL and you might just get what i mean.

Disclaimer: The writer of this blog do not endorse any psychotropic drugs or any sort of laced coffee. Drugs are bad. Nuff said.

Alive!

Wowee, being jobless has it bright brief moments too! After being a peon for months, i got a chance to re-live my lifestyle of a bum these few days by hanging out with old friends and also last night chilling out at Latte @ 8 which featured Roger Sanchez ( he's playing a set tonite at Sepang F1 circuit) and 2 local acts Pop Shuvit and Love Me Butch. It was a great time chilling out drinking some weird coffee + soy milk courtesy the creative people at Starbucks, listening to live music and of course enjoying God's fine creations ( if you know what i mean ;P) . I havent been doing these things since i graduated and working in a 24/7 environment dont help either. Being jobless has its perks once in a while and i'm gonna live every second of it!

Unit Trusts anyone?

First day being jobless feels good man. Waking up late , i start the day slowly with the thoughts of how the folks at office are doing. Smiling wryly, i think its not soo fun..hahahah...Then the next thing i did was to call up some close frens and to have lunch with the limited cash that i have due to my own doing ( gatal berenti kerja) but all was good in the neighbourhood when you stomach is full of Nasi Beriyani.

After chilling out the whole afternoon, i went out just now at night with another fren to attend a Business Opportunity Presentation by SBB Mutual. Its the same tactics used by MLM companies and insurance agencies keen on recruiting new downlines. The reason i was there was because a good fren of ours who is working there has some extra tickets and gave them out.
The place Eastin Hotel was a nice place and the talk they have is really good if you wanna get motivated by a couple of people that is happy they earn soo much money by venturing into SBB Mutual and is shouting to the world that joining the venture will make them rich too. Sheesh.

But all said and done, its an experience where i got to observe how sales people operate and what distinguished the good , the bad and the ugly. Its like going to the Safari and learning about animal behaviour, interactions in the wild and getting to the edge of being victims. Not bad for a jobless former banker ehh?

P.S: Want to be rich? Gimme a Buzz and I'll change your life!! :P

Freedom, Hope and Dreams

Today, i gave back my HID tag and walk out the doors of HSBC for one last time as an employee. It was a mixed feeling of sadness and also happiness at the same time. I was sad because i could have achieve the heights in the company with no sweat next year but i'm happy that i have found my calling. I have decided what i wanna become in the future. I want to be filthy rich with moolah to spend and drive my BMW with Bling Bling rims. hehehe.... It's gonna be a real struggle for me i believe in my hard work and potential and its gonna pay off one day.
Its sad to leave a company with such reputation and also to leave a department in which you are a pioneer member and you experience the hard times and good times and knowing that things are gonna get better just makes leaving abit harder.

I guess its normal when you have a comfy job and so secure about income, you will feel reluctant to leave for better oportunities. But i believe in the One Life philosophy where you only live once so if you wanna do something , do it and dont regret later that you didnt do it. If opportunity dont knock on your door, go find it and knock on its door instead. The road is paved with gold, but if you dont bend down to pick it up , the gold wont float up and go into your pockets.

I walk out the doors of the world's 2nd largest bank by market value with the pride of a young lion and full of confidence that with a lotsa sweat i will make it in my life, with His blessings.

Dark side of the moon

Its been more than a week since i wrote anything on the blog thanks to the 3pm - 12am shift which i worked throughout the period. During these time, i have gone on a roller-coaster ride from the resignation of my job to the trip down to JB to visit my late friend's grave. It has been eventful and and here i am writing the recounts of these events and its effects on me.
Resigning wasnt an easy thing, you give the letter and tell yourself that theres no turning behind but the not for the current employers that i worked for. Just when i was planning my holiday plan and a backup plan , the AVP offered me a fast track promotion to Assistant Manager if i stayed and at this moment, i'm waiting for the black and white on regards of this. Life is full of choices and sometimes when you are lucky, you spoilt for it ( this time i'm lucky enuff to get a taste of it). Its an open road, but i believe God will guide me through no matter what comes.

Just yesterday, me and some close friends went down to JB for brief vist to my late friend's to pay respects after more than a year since he left the world . It was a quiet trip which had a tinge of sadness and also closure. There was relief that we have lifted a burden which was to graduate from MMU as promised to him and also the sadness that he isnt around anymore. Life went on but took a different turn as the realization of how fragile life is and how death can affect negatively on the balance of things we took for granted. It was a hard way to learn a lesson of life but i have learnt its better to embrace it than trying to navigate it around or pretend it didnt happened. I have also learnt that faith in God is important not only in bad times but also good times. We have to remind ourselves that we are lucky that we have His love and no matter what He will be there for us. We are blessed and be thankful for it.

Keep on rocking the free world!!

Hmm..looks like its the time of the year again, graduation time for most people i know in MMU. I can see that alot of people are feeling nosltalgic and some the feeling hasnt sink in yet. Reminds me on how i feel last year when during my final exams back in august. Felt sad and yet happy that i will finally take a step to conquer the world outside. After 7 months down the road i didnt feel anything anymore. Life changes but we gotta adapt to it. Come May and i wont have a place to hang out in Serdang and no more laughters with close friends that will embark on their own adventures there on. I am feeling the heat a little now but i'll wait till it comes. So much has happen in 3 plus years and finally i am gonna officially graduate this coming august, 1 year after i finish my last paper in MMU. To all the funky people in MMu that is gonna convo with me this year, keep on rocking the free world as you have rocked in MMU!!

Makan - makan @ Marriots Putrajaya

Today was quite an adventure for Tuesday. I had to skip my work for like extra 1 hour than the given 1 hour and rush for a buffet dinner with friends at Marriots Putrajaya, a place i often hang out some time ago and boy it was worth all the trouble getting there. The food was great but most of all, the people that went. Its great meeting up with Dr. Ali , Dr. Mohan and Dr. Ahasanul whom all have taught me tricks of the trade in my course. By meeting them and exchanging ideas, i discovered opportunities and also fresh ideas. Its hard being the working grad but i wont be alone soon, as the jokers from the class of 2005 will graduate in a few weeks time and b thrown into the real world. People like David Ng (of roomart fame) and Peng Yew( sessionist terkenal) are already beginning to shine in their talents of conning people and music. I will take my time to shine and i know most if not all will in their due time.

I owe my knowledge gained in MMU partly to the cool lecturers that have trained me from Padawan to full fledge Jedi and now its up to me to be the Sith..hoor..hoor..hoor.... Had a great lunch and too bad i gotta leave early to go back to work otherwise i believe i will continue to hav more fun. To the good people of MMU Marketing Major past and present, i toast to our impending success ! Cheers!

Sunday jottings

First thing i heard when i stepped in the office this morning was that the pope has passed away. Not exactly the thing you wanna hear early in the morning on a Sunday and in the office (i hate my work) but did anyway. I may not be a Catholic but the the passing of Pope John Paul II is a loss to the cause of peace worldwide and also to cause of spreading God's love. There may be a lot of differences between ideologies but the pope did not let that difference to hinder his efforts to spread love and peace around the world. May his soul rest in peace with The Lord above and lets hope that the efforts put by this man inspire us to be a better citizen of the world and also continue our effort to spread God's love to each other.