Wowee, What a show!!

I just finished watching the Oscars and indeed its a good one. Jamie Foxx won an well earned Oscar for his stellar performance in Ray, the movie about the legend himself ( God bless him) . Correct me if i'm wrong but Jamie is the third african-american to win an Oscar for the best actor category after Sidney Poitier and Denzel Washington. Its nice to see that America finally accepts thats there is no discrimination in terms of talent when it comes to motion arts. Besides Jamie, Morgan Freeman deserves his Oscar as well. Another thing that i would like to comment is that thank God The Aviator did not win the best picture award as it is the most boring movie i've ever watched. Leo DiCaprio is again a mis - cast in this movie. He is talented but somehow doesnt fit well to the Howard Hughes character and throughout the movie its only his acting abilty that manages to save the movie. I may be stoned for this comments on The Aviator as i know many people liked it but i just want to make an honest statement, that movie sucks even though i havent watched Million Dollar Baby to compare it.(waiting for my friendly neighbourhood DVD pirate to supply me). Thats all for now, stay tuned for more rattle and hum from me.

Rise and Fall

In life there are uncertainties and a lot of unpleasent experiences for one to go through. Its easy for one to rise and to fall just by words and also by betrayal of those people around them. What is friendship all about? Is it about hanging out together doing things or chatting? For some it is, but i discovered there is more to that. Being a friend is about understanding , about communicating without fear or prejudice and forgiving one another. I have made alot of friends and lost a lot of friends, but the ones that stay are the ones that believe in you and you believe in them. Its a bond of trust that if you have some beef you talk it over and not going around campaigning or having a bout of paranoia. How bout asking instead of suspecting? Does it sounds familar to you all these? Well, if so then lets all start look into ourselves and examine our faith in God. Why are we so hostile to our enemies when Jesus himself forgave his enemies and even died for their and our sins. We are all made in His image so why dont we start to try to live in His image and redeem ourselves from our sins and try to make the world a better place. Its been a bittersweet Sunday for me but in the end my faith is reaffirmed as i confess my sins and seek salvation.

When anger lingers in our hearts,

It poisons all we think and do;

But faith seeks ways to show God's love

And keeps our spirit strong and true.

Semi - Charmed Life

Wow, what a saturday it was. First, i slept at 3 plus and woke up at 7 in the morning to go work. Work was fine today as it was test run in which only 30 percent of calls are routed in. But the nine of us at the office got a pleasent suprise when the IT dept wants to a testing on the phones and we dont hav to take calls for 2 hours. We got ourselves some pizza and fried chicken and had a nice long lunch which wont happen again in a long time. As i worked hlaf day i went home and sleep after that and boy it was great with the evening rain and all.

By 7.30pm, Peng Yew and gang arrived and we set up our makeshift bbq area and prepare our dinner. Yeps, i had a bbq at my home just now and boy it was great. It was around 9 of us and for once its not a bbq by hooligans and it was clean and organised ( i guess wit no alcohol around things are better). We had chicken and beef which was marinated Iranian style by Ali ( it was excellent) and lots of sausages. As a whole i had lots of fun and Thanks alot guys for coming to my crib and burn some chickens and beef..ehhehe... I'm too full now to write anything.

If words can be felt like music

If only i could put the music i hear into words, you would understand a slight pattern of my thoughts. I am listening to the musical composition titled Evening by Toshiro Masuda ( you can get it here) Download and listen to that track.

Its has been a long day and a long week. As my department is going 24/7 , i have deployed to the 0900hrs - 1800hrs shift but i have to sacrifice my weekend. I dont mind at all as i am just a soldier of fortune obeying orders plus i nothing much to do anyway. For some it might mean no more hanging out or partying on saturday nights which basically sucks. I did a long thinking and i concluded that my weekends are beginning to fade away. Week by week i find that the people i hang out with are busy or not around to hang out with. Its part of the growing phase, people come people go but i still need a weekend life. I realise i dont have one. Sad ehh? Working in a way has robbed me of my precious time to do what i want to do and the only respite i get from it is money and experience. I know i am spoilt by saying this but i'm sorry.I know alot of people out there are jobless and would do anything to get food on their table and here i am bitching about it. Truth is from this experience, i realised i am truly blessed. I have an income and a job that has bright prospects. I begin to see this fact when i compared to what i could have ended with. Most of the time we are blind to God's blessings to us until we realise that we could be worse. I thank God that i have a good life and be blessed with the opportunity to bitch about it.
The cold hard fact of starting from the bottom of the ladder is sobering and sometimes you just lose it like this pot. Its rubbish but at least its straight from the heart.

What is the way?

".....times are changing, the world and its values arent like what it used to be before. It used to be a better and cultured society but now its its just a shadow of the past. Honour is a forgotten value these days or more like a forgotten virtue. The so called warriors of today are just pirates in the disguise of a samurai and are only working for only one lord, money. The flashy swords and all, a show of material wealth but somehow i doubt their spiritual wealth. But they are beatable, been there done that , showy imposters are no match for the real thing.

I think i spent too much time fighting battles that it has consumed me. The greed, the lust and the ruthlessness somehow ate into me and sooner or later i'll be engulfed with this darkness. I am neither here nor there, a lost soul seeking a path back to where he belongs, the way that can lead to redemption and freedom of the mind. I know the way but i cant see it clearly in this darkness and i'm walking blindly towards it. But i have hope that my instincts will lead me there. I believe in destiny and in time and hope, lies my true greatness that has yet be shown. There is a way, and its my way. "
- taken from Tales of a Secret War

Changing lanes

First of all, a big congratulations to my homie Jiraiya-sama for finally getting a job. Its hard chillin out at home doing nothing ehh?..hehehe.. anyway, speaking of jobs i'm in a midst of plotting an escape from my current job to another. I'm kinda getting bored of what i'm doing now and am seeking out for opportunities to put into good use what i have learnt in my university. But i cant leave till i nail one down so i have the cash keep flowing in but the whole issue make me have a few thoughts.

When you are studying, working is something that you look foward to and the idea of having a job with a MNC and a good salary rolling in sounds good but reality is far from that. The ideals of having a good life when you work come crashes down when you do get that job with an MNC. Your salary will go into paying bills and sustaining your living leaving few for savings and lifestyle indulgences. At work , you will come into realization that you are very very small in the whole equation and have alot of years of experience to catch up. Its makes you humble and shows you the long road and mountains ahead. But does having a specific job or working with any big companies have an effect on what you will become in the future? No, the future lies in your hand to do what is right to achieve your dreams and goals. A job is a tool that you use to learn your mistakes and to gain the knowledge to upgrade your value and worth. And with God's grace you will be there in the end. This is what i believe.

For those who are heading to the direction of starting a career, take your time off to RECHARGE and look for work only when you are bored sitting at home and willing to do something worthwhile. Or maybe when you need the money.

Darn skies, wheres my rain?

Sighs, the damn hot wheather nearly make me sick today, feels as though a freight train ran over my head. But whatever, i had a great time last night at the steamboat and i think i ate too much prawns that makes kinda sick of them now. Imagine cooking prawns with egg and tons of planta, meat with egg and tons of planta and almost everything with planta. I wonder if anyone spent time at the toilets after that?..hmm.. .Anyway big shout outs to all the people that made last night a great time out.Cheers!!

A cook's tour: Penang Part 2

Part 2 of my Penang food tour. Enjoy!

Chee Cheong Fun
a. Coffee Shop at Lorong Macalister
b. Jalan Baru

Chendol
a. Stall at junction Jalan Penang/Lebuh Keng Kwee, beside Joo Hooi Cafe
b. Stall at Super Komtar foodcourt
c. Sar Chew Restaurant, Jalan Cantonment

Chicken Broth
a. Padang Brown Hawker Complex, Jalan Anson

Chicken Rice (Hainan)
a. Fatty Loh
b. Tanjung Bunga, opp. Chinese Swimming Club
c. Jalan Cantonment, Pulau Tikus, opp Maybank
d. In front of Agora Hotel, Jalan Macalister
e. Coffee Shops (several specialists along Lebuh Chulia)
f. Kheng Pin Coffee Shop, junction Jalan Sri Bahari/Jalan Penang
g. Poly Cafe, Jalan Burma, Pulau Tikus
h.Near TARC Pg

Hokkien Mee
a. Coffee Shop junction of Jalan Burmah/Jalan Cantonment - morning
b. Crystal Food Garden, Jalan Tanjung Tokong, near to Sandy BayBeachcomber - evening
c. Sin Kim San Coffee Shop, junction Jalan Macalister/Jalan Rangoon
d. Coffee Shop several doors to the left of Midtowne Hotel, Jalan Macalister
e. Song River Cafe, Persiaran Gurney - night only
f. Coffee Shop at Jalan Perak/Jalan Kebun Nyor

Its just the feel

Relationships are a funny thing. No matter how long you are in it, you cant just predict what happens next. Its tough when you commit to something and in the end things dont work out the way you wanted it. You guys must be wondering why am i writing about this topic, am i nuts? do i have someone in mind?..No, its just that a friend's story inspired me to write a few thoughts i have. I have been through crap in relationships too, everyone has their fair share of dissapointments and all. Everytime you get involve in one, the possibilities of heartbreak is always there and till now all of mine ends up in one. But its ok, life goes on no matter how hard it is. You may be down today and tommorow but it wont be like that forever. You will bounce back and things will be normal again. Sometimes, we are meant for something else that is bigger and better and we got to wait for it. Its easier said than done all of this words, and nobody has all the solutions to life's problem but life is such. We have the answers, just that we dont dare to find out whether it works or not.

".......its been more than two years since she caught my eye and she still do captivate me everytime i meet her. I felt there is something special about her that mesmerizes me. She has that magic that makes me swoon everytime i look at her and her spoken words cuts through my heart like a whisper from an angel. She is not just any girl but one that has right stuff that i admire and i have no idea what it all means. I never made any move all these years cause i prefer to keep a distance from disaster. All relationships i've had just didnt work out and i dont want this to be another statistic too. But i have hopes that i might try one day when i dont have other battles and wars to fight. I know its all a dream and a far fetched one but sometimes its dreams like these that make me go on, to hope that perhaps someday its not just a dream anymore. Hope is a good thing and good things dont die. "
- excerpt from the Tales of a Secret War

Darkness and Light

Blinded in these darkness,
muted by twilight sadness,
lost in a pool of muddy thought,
I'm ruined to be left for rot.

Give me thy light for my sight,
bless me with thy voice of might,
guide me to thy clear waters in the river,
break my chains and stop my shiver.

O' broken swords and spears,
i reforge thee with my tears,
and by heat of heavenly fire,
Arise to the glory my heart desire!

- by don

Old habits die hard

I have never felt beaten in a very long time but today, i was beaten by the burden of expectations and by the scorching heat of sun in the morning. I thought i was tough, i thought i have seen it all, but in the end its all but a thought lost in words. Never was i being dragged to the threshold of my limits such as what has happened.

I was a drained man by 4pm as the day was quite hectic and all my backlogs hit me all at the same time. But like a gift from the gods, heaven poured like nothing else and wash my bloodied mind and brought back the life in me. I was renewed and had regained my lost strength with the whirlwind of rain that blowed at me. Refreshed, a new ordeal awaits me as i got back to action. The very ghost i wanted bury has returned to haunt me. Since my final semester in MMU, i have being dying to run away from being thrown the responsibilty to handle a team. I have had my share of the disappointments and frustrations of being the leader, the one that decides. I want to leave all that behind, no more responsibilities and for once i want to be the sheep not the shepard. But why today i was called by the boss to be part of a forum discussing team problems. They turned to me and a few more for solutions as they said we are the cream of the crop. The others can be the cream of the crop, but for heaven's sake leave me out. Why is it when I work hard and be a humble person that everyone connects with, i'll be singled out for the limelight. Why is it they cant just leave alone and find another smart ass instead?

In the end, i cant run anymore from it. I paid for my sins of being hardworking, of being smart and of being friendly. I guess old habits die hard. This i can assure, i cant lose because to some I am a genius and that fact alone will be my only motivation to complete any task given. Who am i? I am shinobi.

Afternoon Meltdown

Damn, its freaking hot outside as i am writing this now. I took leave today to settle some business with the British visa people and came up with some good news really. As i was born in Scotland before 1/1/1983, i am eligible for the Right of Abode which is like a PR status and i'm not confined to any immigration controls. In other words, i can work there legally as an EU citizen. Amazing aint it, i went there to enquire about student working visa and they tell me i dun even need it. Guess, all i need now is a good university and some dough to get my ass there and study/work. Its a trend now to leave home, work in a foreign country and earn some euros or pounds or dollars and bring the cash inflow home. No wonder countries like Indonesia and Philipines defend their legions of illegal and legal workers, its because they bring some cash flow to the economy. Instead of building policies and infrastructure to attract Foreign Direct Investment, you can just export your surplus citizens and conquer some rich countries and one day hope to take over the economy by tricking the rich nation to depend on foreigners ( example in hand Arsenal, they have only 2 esthablished English player and the club is supposed to be English). But i'm gonna jump in the bandwagon too and earn myself some euros and hope to conquer the world one day with the spear of destiny. Till then, i'll just enjoy my ice cold tea in the the blazing heat of the day. Peace.

Streets of Cyberjaya

I love and hate Cyberjaya at the same time. I hate it coz after 3 freaking years i'm still here, i hate it coz its soo far away, i hate it coz there is nothing there, i hate it coz its crappy place to study but i love it because it was my home, i love it because when i'm around MMU the good times come back, i love it coz i have many memories there. I dunno why i'm writing on the boring topic on the so-called intelligent city but i just felt like it. Every time i drive along its lonely roads at night i get flashbacks of my flamboyant life as a student, as a player owning the court with no worries of what's next coz i'm under control. But its all gone now, aint no more a player in my own turf, i play to other people's rulez and got to work my ass off just like everyone else. Life is such, one minute you are a superstar the next you are a nobody. I have gained I have lost, whats next i dunno but i done it all in the streets of cyberjaya.

- inspired while listening to warren G's Regulators and TQ's Westside-

Farewell my friends, till we meet meet again

Today, on Valentine's Day 2005 I bade farewell to my four friends who are returning home to Singapore after 3 months plus or stint here in HDPM. Three months ago we are just counterparts, trainers and trainees, mentor and apprentice but today we are equal as friends. How i remember when i first got into SGH CC training class, i was introduced by Cindy to Felina and Elyssa, our trainers on the mission to train us the first team to handle the job assigned by HQ ( a fancy way to descibe work migration ). The first impressions was that these are executives with an air of arrogance in them ( Felina only larr) but the impressions are not true as we got to know each other. That was 3 months ago and along the way we had our share of adventures and fun together and in the process learn to master our job task. Vic and Cat arrived as reinforcements to Felina and Elyssa one month after the initial theoritical training and they were assigned to train us on the field, the real thing. From you guys, i have learned alot and have definetely graduated to be a competent agent despite still needing time to the be the best. Three months is definetely a short time but long enough to forge a friendship. Here are some of things i can put into words to describe the trainers and managers, the people that have made a difference:

Cindy ( Training Manager);
The lady that is responsible for our training in SGH CC and also the first trainer go home on January. The first team has learned so much about credit cards and the banking system from her and also passed and failed some of her exams.hehehe. We do miss the cheerful smile and stories you would tell us during training. I am also grateful and thankful to her for her advice on how to live the working environment on a Christian perspective and i will always remember what you have shared with me on your experiences and may God bless you always.

Kelvin ( Internet Services Manager);
Man, this wiseguy does have a wit and his sly jokes are killer ( they can kill you).hehehe.Had much fun with him and will miss the entertainment when he is around.

Cheryl ( Customer Service Manager);
I learn how to handle difficult situations from her and am now more confident to kill mad customers.hehehe. I have learned from the boss.

Catherine ( Mentor);
She looks quiet and blur at times but her actions can kill you. A fun person to chat with and always have suprises up her sleeve. Will miss the Brunei terminal chill out sessions where she went and email some prank to the SOC girls involving me and Prakie. One cool Cat this is.

Elyssa ( Mentor and Trainer);
The patient one. I began to appreciate her patience when i personally listened and mentored couple of newbies and realised that she has been patient in listening to our calls and teaching us the correct way to do things. She has earned my respect for her patience and i'll never forget her wayang screenplays.hehehe.

Mike ( Mentor);
He can crack jokes out of thin air. A quiet funny guy whose jokes and chat sessions will be missed around the office. Wish ya could hang around a little longer.

Vic ( Mentor ) ;
I would defintely miss her bubbly presence around the office. I have had a great time hanging out with her and also talking about books and stuff. She always complains that i am vain like Felina and my little actions will attract comments of vainess.hhehee, will miss that too. Thanks for the poem, i am touched as a friend. Take care and May the force be with you.

Felina ( Mentor and Trainer);
What can i say about this person? Vain and noisy worse than me, i found The Mentor. As the apprentice , not only i have learned about credit cards and workflow but also fashion tips from the master herself. In three months, we have had so much fun and outings that i will miss now in the office. I have no gym to go anymore, i have one less fellow vainpot in the office but most of all i have a void in my office life now ( hahaha...no shopping kaki to talk to anymore ). I cant put to words your influence on me and so much more things that we did this 3 months but i would like sum it up into a big Thank You and its been great knowing you. Will see ya around the Net.


To end this long ode to my friends and counterpart, I wish all the best in what life has to offer and May God Bless You Always. I will keep in touch with you guys and till the next time we meet, Peace.

Of 'chavs' and snobs from London

It was a suprise this year that a close buddy of mine came back for a short CNY break and i managed to meet him and have coffee together with another homie. The three of us goes back a long way to when we were 7 years old in primary school and its amazing that years can go by so fast. Its hard to believe that a close buddy of yours actually graduate from Cambridge University and now is with a top accounting firm in London. Now talk about standards to live with, a cambridge grad and an auditor compared to me, a local grad and also a banking executive with the only the link to London is that my company's HQ is there. Is there a gap?..nope we are equally on the same level of thinking just i was too lazy to work my ass off for SPM and my batch of friends that graduate from high school were the last of students that were taught by good senior teachers that have the passion to educate in them ( God bless them ) and looking at the current crop of teachers in schools, its gonna be a long time before the nation can benefit from more people like me and him and some of you out there. Hehehe, anyhow catching up with him , i manage to get a few information on living and working there plus some jokes about the 'chavs' there and about him being a snob. It was nice but its gonna be a long time before i'm gonna meet him again in Malaysia unless i get my ass off this seat and fly to London ( might happen). Till we meet again, cheers mate!

I Still Havent Found What I'm Looking For

I was soo touched by the comments of "jiraiya", owner of "Land of The Dying Crows" blog. Yeah, i used to crap alot and i still do, no doubt about it. Well, indeed the dark waters of reality inspire my posts but within the dark water there is a shining beacon there waiting to be found ( like a diamond in the longkangs of Chow Kit :P). I am proud to belong to the Fellowship and it takes another post just to describe my feelings and thoughts on that, and i am proud to have my homies around. We have gone through alot together and we got many more to come.

My shining beacon is something which i am still looking for and i havent found to this date. What it is ? i have no freaking idea either. This blog is like a solo project by me to discover my inner thoughts and also to bring forth the fragments of genius that i am ( dun be jealous ). All this posts are crap in their own unique way just that its not in the normal retarded form that normally comes out of my mouth. ( i gotta uphold an intelligent image on the net ok?).

To all my Fellowship members, i toast to you all a very happy new year and may our adventures continue for many many years to come. Cheers!!

Leadership on a E.I level

You guys must be wondering what am i doing writing rubbish on a day like this, the 1st day of new year but i must admit that this topic is too intresting to wipe off my mind without noting it. I have just read a book by Daniel Goleman, "The New Leaders" and its a great book that brought out alot of ideas and inspirations on how to be a leader not only on the practical side but to inspire others to succeed as well. The main characteristic that the book discuss was the Emotional Intelligence (E.I) that many great leaders in the business world possses such as David Ogilvy and Jack Walsh (great CEOs of their right). The lesson learnet here is that, by understanding people and guiding their emotions to a positive side not only reaps rewards for the people you guide but yourself as the leader its self. Respect will come from the way things or issues are handled and i mean THE WAY its handled. A leader with no emotional contact or touch will not succeed in getting the desired result for the company. If we are to succeed in what we are doing, we need to polish our people skills and also learn to follow our "gut feeling" on things and be the leader that people look up to because you represent them and their hopes and dreams. Nuff said, go get the book and read it.

Happy CNY !!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!..Happy New Year Guys, its the year of the rooster this time around and its time to take a break and also spend the time with family and friends. For me the new year is all about family and getting together to look foward for a great year ahead. As time is a valueble asset that doesnt depreciate like the US dollar, spend it wisely and have a great , prosperous new year ahead!!..Be Blessed.

Existance: My 2 cents worth

Isnt it amazing that by driving alone in the car at night can make one's mind to ponder upon thoughts. I had this thought that i just wanna share which came about by listening to some old song.

For a very long time i have asked questions of who am i ?, what am i here for?, what is it that i want in life? but somehow as i grow with age and experience, i realized that the answers are actually for me to answer and not there to be found. We are who want to be and despite popular belief, we can change who we want to be. Six years ago i was a lost young man searching for the meaning of existance . This is my answer, we live to serve God and mankind, to spread His love to all and ultimately to be more like Him as a person. If the world needs a change, it is our mindset that we need to change first. As a person we need to accept the diversity that God creates around us and to love all equally. Can we do it? Honestly?. I have friends who fall victim to people that cant accept others as equal whether on a status issue or ethnic differences. Sad isnt it? i believe some of you might have experience this. Is there a solution to this? i wont know at this point but deep im my heart, i believe in God' s greatness to change things around through the strength of His believers' prayers and actions. Want a reason to exist? want a person to live for? live for God and you will live for yourself.


"Sing praise to God who reigns above,The God of all creation,The God of power, the God of love,The God of our salvation."

A cook's tour: Penang part 1

I have decided to publish some joints i know in Penang that serves good food as part of the CNY Speacial, just in case if anybody decides to take extended holidays in Penang and wanna try out some food. It took me some time but here goes nothing:

Ah Thooi Mee Suah (Vermicelli with Duck Drumstick soup)
a. Roadside Stall at Jalan Sungei Pinang in front of Boon Siew Honda workshop

Ban Chean Kuih (Chinese Pancake)a. Ah Kee Chinese Pancake(012-482 1077), stall beside coffee shop atjunction of Taman Sri Nibong and Jalan Sultan Azlan Shah - night
b. Cart beside Chartered Bank - afternoon
c. Cart in front of General Post Office - afternoon

Beef Koay Teow (Glutinous Flat Noodles in Beef Soup)
a. Lebuh Victoria Bus Terminal hawker complex

Char Tung Hoon (friend glass noodles)
a. Ang Hoay Lor Restaurant, Jalan Gurdwara

Char Koay Teow (Fried Glutinous Flat Noodles with prawns, cockles)
a. Sisters at Jalan Macalister (near junction of Jalan Macalister/Jalan Perak)-morning
b. Lorong Kulit/Jalan Dato Keramat junction - morning
c. Lorong Selamat stall opposite coffee shop - afternoon
d. Ah Hoe Char Koay Teow , junction Jalan Carnarvon/Lebuh Melayu
e.New Asia Coffee Shop, Air Itam
f. Pulau Tikus Market - night
g. Song River Cafe, Persiaran Gurney
h. Lebuh Kimberley - night
i. most hawker stalls serve good char koay teow


Look out for part 2 soon!

A night of crabs and craps.

Oh what a night, on a fine saturday that has no heavy rain substantial enuff to kill the heat but somehow has a bang to the end of it. After a long day of tasks around the house, i went down to MidValley to pick Elyssa, Vic, Cat, Mike and Cheryl for dinner. And the main course of the dinner will be seafood so we end up at P.J Seafood Restaurant somewhere near Dataran Prima in PJ and had a wonderful dinner of yee sang, chilli crabs, killer prawns and killer pork ribs. It was a reunion dinner for the SGH trainers who are about to leave after 3 months of hard work preparing the transfer of baton from Atrium to HDPM. Its was a great dinner with great food and great crowd. ( Thank You Chris!)

The nite then continued when we headed to Desa Hartamas for a slow session of wine and live music at Bristro 1957. It was a long session of talking cork from the time we step into the car till the end. Too bad it was only me, Felina, Vic and Khoo and wish the others could have joined in as well. From the talking cork session, i am curious now to see how Felina will behave when she is drunk ( she claims she never get drunk ) but somehow i will get the information sooner or later..hehehehe..

To sign off, i would like to say thank you to all of you people tonite for making it a night to remember along with the HRC sessions we had and making my time at the call centre a worth while experience. God Bless.

Sounds of Mellon Collie

Somebody asked me today why my blog is so moody and sounds like some source of inspiration for Chris Cornell ( Soundgarden and Audioslave frontman). Well this is my reply, whenever i wrote in my blog there is bound to be some music playing in my winamp and somehow songs from Smashing Pumpkins were playing and went lingering in my mind, hence the doomsday feeling and all. But heck, with the material that i put in this blog i might as well start writing some songs ( hey joe and terry, we gotta go jamming again guys :P) and make millions if we can put together an album and go mainstream and sell out. Peace.

Nu Year Approaching

Man, i cant believe its almost a year already since the last CNY and i cant wait till next week when i finally get my off days and go visiting homies of the hood. Its been a good friday for me yesterday and according to some article i read in The Star by some Feng Shui master, yesterday is the indication of how your next lunar year will be and if its true the year ahead will be a great one. The office mood and spirit has been positive on Fridays and yesterday was no execption. Thanks guys for making Fridays such a day to look foward to.

On another note, an old friend from skool days finally came home to Malaysia after 1 and a half year in England working his ass off and make some GBP . To 'monyet', welcome home man and wheres my jersey??..hehehe..

Faith is my light in Darkness

Today has been a good day for me. I have been reflecting on my life lately as what am i gonna do with it and i realized i have no answers despite all the bright ideas in my head. Most of the time all of us have plans as what are we going to become in the future whether be it a career issue, personal growth issue and everything else. But more than often these plans dont work and you get stuck with life as it is, totally different from what is suppose to happen. So what do you do in situations like these? run around in circles and scream and hope for a miracle? i hope not, but i found the answer to solve this problem and it may sound simple but somehow not so simple to follow.

The cure to life's blues: Tons of shameless self believe that you will succeed in your dreams ala Naruto and also have faith in God to be the guide in your life no matter what the obstacle may be. Its like a light shining brightly over shrouded skies of darkness that will show you the way.


"Holy Ghost, with light divine,Shine upon this heart of mine;Chase the shades of night away,Turn my darkness into day"

Working life is like a warzone

When i finished my degree last year i didnt expect life would be so challenging as it is now. Dreams of owning a BMW, a 5 figure salary and all suddenly becomes so distant and so isolated from reality. Its not a gameshow or a story with a definite ending but instead its a living nightmare with short but sweet moments that somehow keeps me going.

My warzone is my office, a call center in HSBC Cyberjaya which deals with credit cards problems from a country that has their call center operations outsourced. Its a warzone because you wake up everyday getting ready for another tough day listening to people whining about their credit card problems. Some days are bad some days are okay but there is never a good day. The warzone has claimed a few casualties already even though its been operational less than 2 months. Imagine everyday you and your colleagues gets gunned down by customers and some of them cant take it anymore and leave. Some people may think that taking up calls is an easy job but trust me it aint that easy. Try getting getting your ass screwed everyday and theres nothin much you can do. Well, you can leave alright but there is just one problem though.....
there is no job in the world that has no problems........By the end of everyday, i'm just too drained to think of anything else but rue and remembering how life was sooo different 6 months ago.

If you are still studying enjoy every minute of it and if you are working, I pray the Lord that He bless us all with the strength and courage to go on and make that BMW a reality.Amen.

My Space

Well, here's my attempt of being a writer of sorts by setting up a blog and also an avenue for me to share my two cents worth of nonsense and also disclose some things in my mind. I welcome everyone to waste their time here in my lounge of words.It may not be much but at least its My Space. Cheers!